“I have to do this now.”
Now isn’t specific.
Monday, June 2nd 2025 at 12:00pm is specific.
It is always now.
It will always be now.
This can be a steep learning curve for folks who are remembering and reclaiming their intuitive perception. I have experienced it plenty of times in my own personal life: getting an intuitive hit with the word now attached to it, and thinking that something had to be done right then and there. Only to be met by extreme resistance, confusion, and typically a total breakdown of whatever was supposed happen now. Sometimes this could be as high stakes as moving to a different city or state, or something as seemingly mundane as which book I’ll read next.
I experience this every week in client sessions: someone will be deep into an ancestral lineage healing process, and will receive a clear message to do something now: have a baby, breakup with a partner, take a trip, make pierogies, and when the prompt is “When?” the answer is almost always “Now.” When I hear a client say that they’ve received the information that something has to happen now, I remind them that, to the ancestors especially, it is always now. Can you ask again, and more specifically, “When?” If the only response that still comes is “now” it’s about developing the muscle of restraint to just sit with the idea/action.
The same process happens in the Akashic Records. When someone asks a question in the Records: when is the best time for me to apply for a new job/take a trip/ put my house on the market/ etc, and the answer that I receive is “now” I pause, and generally ask if they can ask the question again to see if the Records will provide a more specific response. If it’s still not given, then we slow down, and work to integrate the restraint to continue to hold the inquiry.
As our attention spans are eroded and domaine receptors out of sorts thanks to the avalanche of instant gratification our phones and computers have afforded us, this can be an extremely uncomfortable, triggering practice: waiting.
When we get the information that we must do something “now” we might feel a bit in control. Yes, I can do this thing now! We might have a sense of relief and safety in the body and nervous system because there is a sense of being prepared. Even if it may be something that we don’t necessarily want to do… like end something that feels stable or even pleasant on the surface.
The truth that we are always on a need to know basis. Safety and comfort are not born out of control, planning, and a rigid sense of having all of the information/data/facts/perspectives. Safety is forged in the elasticity of your flexibility. Can you hold your center and tolerate nuance? Can you spend as much time as is needed in the void/great unknown/in between?
These now messages, and therefore the practice of restraint, can come to us in lots of places:
-dreams
-readings from practitioners who have the blindspot of thinking now is specific
-deep inner knowings
-messages from ancestors
You’re in a medicine journey (or a decidedly recreational experience, and something more profound shines though) and you get the message to sell all of your belongings and move to another continent… now. You could heed this sacred or maybe not-so-sacred advice, and do that immediately only to get ravished by illness as soon as you arrive. Or you could employ a little patience, stay put, sit with discomfort you are feeling, and move though a developmental breakthrough, and years later make the move and be met by a radiant benediction from the land, your inner child, your ancestors, and your current partner.
An area that tends to be able to give more specific time frames is astrology. Not so much because there is a lot of linear time involved, but because the foundation is built upon endless cycles and transits, which are specific increments of time.
Life isn’t linear, despite the modern propaganda that it is. Sometimes, when we feel as though we are being hurled towards something, or someone, or somewhere, the lesson, the breakthrough, the level up, the code that is trying to come though and have a direct experience is to not be seduced by momentum. (Wounds have a very, very seductive momentum! More on that next week…) To sit in the wild, dark, unknown, and ground and resource ourselves with the endless possibilities, nearly all of which more nourshing, strange, magical, and healing than any we’d come up with ourselves.
June bookings are open! This month, I’ve got weekday, evening, and weekend availability.
And, I just dropped my rates 👀
Even further discounts are available for 3, 5, and 10 session packages.
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Ancestral Lineage Healing is a type of spiritual repair work that addresses deep attachment and cultural wounds through contact and meditative time with your ancestral lineages.
I guide you as you cultivate your capacity for deep connection with blood-lineage ancestors that are well in spirit to invoke their support for healing generational trauma and cultural wounding through your ancestral lines.}
I’m still finding again and again that this work is container for having emotionally corrective experiences that may not be possible with other living humans.
3, 5, and 10 session packages available.
Akashic Records sessions offer soul-level guidance to your deepest questions.
The Akashic Records are a dynamic reservoir of information including every thought, emotion, experience, and intention of your soul through all lifetimes.
Connecting to your Akashic Records enhances your intuition and self-trust, gives you a greater understanding of your life purpose and how to live in harmony with others, and connects you to a source of self-healing and transformation.
3 session packages available.
🕯️ Ancestor Circle (Group Session)
This ritual container is open to anyone who has begun the Lineage Healing process with me or another practitioner. It is necessary to have met your ancestral guide before attending a circle.
In our time together we will:
-Have 2 guided drop-ins with the lineage of focus
-Time to share as a group
Connecting with your beloved ancestors in a group setting is potent, may it be nourishing and anchoring for you during this potent time between the full moon and the solstice.