Turning the Page

Feeling very in sync with the Gregorian calendar for the first time in years. This week and last have felt so acutely liminal, I’m ready to exhale into the catharsis of an ending.

What a lifetime this year has been.

A wildly expansive year after 4 consecutive years of deep contraction and descent. (2022 recap reel, 2023 recap post, and reel)

Movement was the theme, but not in the way I have historically had a relationship with it.

Movement in big, modern-human ways and lack of movement in small, modern-human ways:

I moved across the country (for the 2nd time in 3 years. 🫠)

I had an excruciating season of extreme lack of agency of movement as I unwound some deep codependency, resource scarcity, and younger aspects of myself I was seemingly at war with. More simply: I was living rurally with extremely limited access to a car.

I traveled a lot. Including internationally a few times, which I haven’t done in nearly 7 years.

And yet. It was the stillest my body has ever been, save for my fingers. So. Much. Computer. Time. Less miles than I ever have walked in the last… 14? 15? years. (Went from 5-7 miles daily to maybe a single 3 mile hike a month.) It’s been hard on my physical body.

I read a lot, as usual. In large part because of the 2 very devoted book clubs I’m a part of. The Madonna Secret by Sophie Strand was my favorite book by a mile. It was the very first book I read back in January, and it was the longest book I read at 608 pages. Miram & Yeshua fully human and embedded into a web of humans, rivers, trees, and big cats? Makes my mystic, animist heart flutter and soar.

A lot died.

Grasping for things I really wanted (do I even know what I want? 😵‍💫) deeply held beliefs about the way things “should be”, my once abundant free time.

Samara and I rebuilt our friendship/dharma sisterhood from the ashes of its former foundation. It was some of the most brutal and rewarding relational work I have ever leaned into.

Rupture and repair is the only way to intimacy. Hard stop.

2024 was a doozy— but linear time isn’t real anyways. The game is made up and the points don’t matter ™️🌀

Thanks for being here and for reading.

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PS- Did you burn your wishes? Would love to see what wish is yours to hold for the year. I’m opening mine in the morning on the 1st.

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PPS - I have a few spots open for free Akashic Records Readings this month while I finish up my practitioner training. Much, much more on that to come.